Over the past year our lives have changed dramatically. Once we were the typical family, dad rushing off to work, then working way too many hours, mom getting the lunches prepared for the children, getting them off to school, making sure that there was dinner on the table and clean clothes for everyone.
Then we saw the lump, that lump changed all things, it changed our view on life, and what we had once pursued. Stuff no longer held any importance, but relationships did, what was mediocre before now became a passion.
Well the lump was checked out and removed and we had a stay in Execution if you would, a stay of drugs, hospitals, doctors and the rest of the things that would throw your world upside down. Then another lump formed, I had to beg my husband to go in to see the doctor but he refused for almost a month, but I knew that something was wrong, unfortunately he did not want to face the reality.
When I finally did get him to go in and see the doctor the news was bad, multiple tumors had formed that were not there a year ago and further tests needed to be done. So, off we went, from one horrible and painful test to another until the doctor finally said, “The Lymphoma inside of you has transformed into a different aggressive kind and you will need treatment immediately”
Yes, that was not the news that we wanted to hear and to be honest it knocked our socks off a bit, but God who goes before us in all things, had people already praying for us, and throughout the tests and other procedures that my husband has had to endure, God has given us a peace, that truly passes all understanding, a strength that is hard to even explain and even a sense of joy as we walk through this valley of cancer.
My husband had his first treatment on Thursday, it was not the treatment that he wanted, but a stronger form of Chemo therapy, the one with all of the horrible side effects but God, again in his great mercy gave my girlfriends and I some wisdom and insight on praying for him. We asked the Lord to let the drugs do what they were meant to and that he would not have to suffer the debilitating side effects that come with it.
I want to tell you that; yes he has been tired, and yes he has vomited a couple of times, and experienced a little bit of pain, but nothing like the list of possible side effects stated! Our God is amazing!
I know that the reason for such a miracle has been because of prayer; many people from around the world have been praying for him and for the family and I can tell you, prayer most certainly works. God hears us and answers us when we cry out to him whether it is for ourselves or for others. He hears our cries.
I would like to share with you another instance of how great and awesome our God is, I had been praying and asking the lord for provision for the family during this time when my husband is not really up to working. I know that he is our provider but we still need to have faith believing that he will do what he says he will do. Then the other day as my girlfriends and I were praying for the situation, my husband received a call from his boss who told him that he had arranged for my husband to receive full payment of his salary during the duration of his chemo therapy sessions. When he told me I burst into tears, as I was amazed at how God had worked it out and that the provision he had for us was being released. My dear friends, this was such a relief and a burden lifted as we still have bills to pay regardless of the fact that my husband is ill.
I praise the Lord for His great provision and work on our behalf.
Then the lord gave me a little gift in the midst of all of this, I walked into my bedroom and my youngest child was sitting on the bed talking to her dad. Well I thought she was talking to him but in reality she was praying for him and she was full of faith asking the lord for His healing for her daddy.
I nearly broke down in tears, but I was so thankful to the Lord for giving me a little glimpse into the faith of a little child for her dad. Praise the lord!
This journey for us has just begun and I know that along the road there are going to be many different ups and downs and tears and joys, but I am so thankful that right in the beginning of this journey the lord prepared me by telling me that he would never leave nor forsake me. I can count on him to see me through all of it, but not only me but my entire family as well.
I know that each of us will grow, develop and become surer in our faith than what we have ever been before. This is not the kind of journey that I had in mind when I asked the lord to take me deeper with him, but it is the one that we are on and because we are I know that God has many treasures for us along the way, he has many things to teach us and much to develop in each one of us. Therefore I say, to God be the Glory for the great things he has done.
If you think of us in the coming months, please pray as I know that God hears and answers and brings deliverance when we need it most.