My heart belongs with God
Have you ever been left with a feeling of emptiness, when what you expected out of something or someone didn’t quite “fit the bill”?
I know that I sure have, when I was younger, I had all of these ideas about what love looked like and how I should feel when I was in love, who the love of my life should be, and how that person would fulfill all of my hopes and dreams.
Then I got married
I came in with those girlhood fantasies and discovered that they were completely unrealistic. I expected my husband, to be my everything, my provider, my best friend (we would stay up late at night and talk about our feelings), the filler of my love tank, and everything else that I needed.
The poor man could never live up to those expectations and soon it created untold problems for us, as well as it created a gaping big hole in my heart. I felt rejected, lonely and lost, my husband was not filling up my love tank and it was almost unbearable at times.
Then I read in a book that women needed to put their hearts into the capable hands of our loving heavenly father, as he was the only one that could truly fill that role in our lives.
My husband’s love for me was flawed, full of brokenness and there was no way that he could love me perfectly, like God could.
The author of that book also said that as women, we needed to forgive our husbands for not being God!
Ouch, that was a hard one to realize, that I had put my husband in the spot where God belonged in my life, and that is why I was feeling so unfulfilled. I was asking my husband to fill a spot in my heart that only God could.
After I realized my mistake, (thankfully early on in our marriage) I was able to let my husband love me the way he knew how, and then allow God to truly fill up my heart with his great love, joy and peace.
This created in me a great sense of satisfaction, as I learnt that God was the one that knew me intimately, he knew my thoughts, hopes, dreams, and desires, and even my hurts, frustrations and fears. There was not an area in my life that he did not have access to. So it would stand to reason that he would know then how to love me fully.
This took great pressure off of my husband, to perform in our marriage, and it freed me to learn to accept his love. I no longer got my feelings of self-worth, satisfaction and joy from him, those came from the lord.
I was now free to pursue the lord whole heartedly, while learning to love my husband, the way the lord intended for me to love him.
The lord revealed to me, during this time of change, that I would never feel filled up with love, from another person or thing, I would only get that from him.
And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
You see, God pours his love into our hearts, he is the only one that can ever satisfy the deepest longings of our heart, and he is the only one who will never leave, nor disappoint us. Our hearts are safe with him.
A while back the lord revealed a great truth to me, and as I share it with you, I pray that it will bless you as much as it has me.
He said to me, “Wherever your heart is, you will be at home,” then he went on to explain to me, “If you will give me your heart, no matter where you are, no matter what you are doing, you will always feel at home, because I am there!”
In other words, when our hearts belong to the lord, we will always have a place of comfort, warmth, a sense of belonging and home, and we will never have to feel like we are alone. He will be the home for our hearts.
Oh, what a comfort that brought to my heart, and once again, it reminded me that I can never rely on other people and things to fill up my heart with love, on Jesus can!
If you are feeling lonely and lost and have tried everything and everybody to fill that deep hole that you have in your heart, why not stop and ask the Lord Jesus Christ to hold your heart, to give you a home with him.
He says in his word,
The LORD appeared to us in the past, saying: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness.”
If you want a permanent home for your heart today, say this prayer with me, and watch and see how God will fill your heart with his great love, and you will always feel safe and comfortable with him.
Dear Lord Jesus
I come to you today, because my heart is empty, all that I have tried to fill it with, has proved worthless and destructive, Father, today I ask that you fill my heart with your love, help me to have a home for my heart that is always with you. I am tired of feeling lonely and unloved, and never measuring up to other people’s standards. Thank you for filling me up today with your great love and giving my heart a permanent home.
In Jesus name I pray
If you prayed that prayer today, you can be rest assured that God who has loved you with an everlasting love and has drawn you to him with loving Kindness will fill your deepest longings with him.
I will leave you with this great verse, that encourages me always,
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
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